Sunday, May 3, 2009

On Energy

I had a realization today! Since the surgery, I am always tired. Not just tired, though, exhausted. Everything seems to take so much more energy than it used to. I am talking not just about physical energy, but also emotional energy.

Today, I went to church and was able to walk in without the assistance of the walker (although, fear not, loyal readers, I carried it with me)! I was able to talk to many people. For the first part of the service, I was even strong enough to stand for the hymn and the opening prayers. I was good and stayed put for the Passing of the Peace. (Well, I can't really say I was good. Honestly, I was already too tired to go anywhere.)

When the service was over, I was already beat. Of course, being out of the house for the first time since Thursday at noon, I wasn't going to waste a chance to be out. Court, my chauffeur of the day, and I went to lunch, the produce market and Wal-mart. (Also, many, many, many thanks go to Court for taking out my trash and recycling.) Of course, I fell asleep about 2 seconds after I stretched out on the couch.

What blows me away is that I have been resting for 2 1/2 days, and my reserves are drained in less than a 1/2 hour. I just can't believe that a cast on my foot can wear me out so much. I know that part of the exhaustion is emotional because of the frustration of not being able to do what I used to do so easily. I know that I should be proud of the accomplishments I have made in the last several weeks, but there is so much more I want to do and that I think I should be able to do.

Thank you for reading and God bless,


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